Cranky day
Gish, was off to a bad start. Couldn't really handle situations well today. Kinda screwed up. Cookhouse's always full and lagging, arms skote's always slow. Different instructions crank down on me, how on earth am i suppossed to relay instructions to my man in that case. Made me look like a commander who knows nuts about whats going on. But nevermind its ok, not as if i care what the man thinks. Geez this job is challenging afterall.
Its not all this adin stuff that i am good at man. Come on thats probably not what i am interested in anyway. All i wanna do is be a section commander and lead man to fight. Look, they gonna do platoon vs platoon tomorrow on objectives sharon 1 and sharon 2. How cool. Hh...k for the uninitiated, they refer to 2 hills.
Army aside. Was talking with guojun the night before and he was telling me how much he is beginning to appreciated xiao jun. Told me that he was touched by her. Hmm. Good for him. Going on with our conversation, i kinda realised the 2 of us both learnt alot of lessons and life skills recently. The past 3 weeks was like a whole module of "relation management" for me. But trust me, i appreciated that because it makes you feel you are growing up. Cool.
Haiz...actually i am still feeling kinda blue. Can't get my mind off thinking about the future. About how things will change for you and me and the future is not as beautiful as you think. Its not as simple as saying things will still be the same. Because i will be missing a large part of you in my life.Circumstances are already changing....
~Jiang lai Ni wo jiu xiang bei shi jian ge jue~
One thing i thought i should bring up. We were discussing how people, in the face of love, tend to have the following kind of misunderstanding. Somehow, in the heat of untold love, people have this misconception that: the best thing i can do is to shorten your pain. I rather you suffer the misery of my houdini, then mislead you and hurt you even more in the future. I am considering from your perspective and this is the best for you. I am hurting right now too, feeling equally miserable but this is for your good. I rather DA all the pain today then let you suffer tomorrow.
Whats this? Heroism? Yes heroic indeed.
Consideration? yes. You rather bear the hurt alone.
There is no sarcasm in my agreement.
But crap. This is not the only situation out. For those of you out there who find this train of thought familiar, its time for you to wake up your idea. You aren't in a god forsaken movie in which such sacrifices are applauded or weeped for. Honourable yes. But brainless. The is one thing you missed out totally in your attempt to express your love through heroism. Don't you ever realism that this is STILL simply a way of escaping? Face the problem and go talk in out. What makes you think that this is a situation in which someone must GIVE it all and BEAR it all alone and someone must suffer. WAKE UP. COS THIS IS NOT TRUE AT ALL. Believe in the beauty of being open minded and talk. Spit the words out and make things clear. GIVE AND BE READY TO ACCEPT. Its all about give and take. Whack that heroic idea outta your head. No matter how messed up things seem to be, speaking the truth and being open will clear things up. And both can be happy. Don't you wish for it? A situation in which both can be happy and no one suffers. Come on, this is neither idealistic or peevish thinking. Its proven by many and many have seen it. Talking clears things up and helps.
Whats there to hide?
Reuben this is for you.The other one, you know who you are.
Its not all this adin stuff that i am good at man. Come on thats probably not what i am interested in anyway. All i wanna do is be a section commander and lead man to fight. Look, they gonna do platoon vs platoon tomorrow on objectives sharon 1 and sharon 2. How cool. Hh...k for the uninitiated, they refer to 2 hills.
Army aside. Was talking with guojun the night before and he was telling me how much he is beginning to appreciated xiao jun. Told me that he was touched by her. Hmm. Good for him. Going on with our conversation, i kinda realised the 2 of us both learnt alot of lessons and life skills recently. The past 3 weeks was like a whole module of "relation management" for me. But trust me, i appreciated that because it makes you feel you are growing up. Cool.
Haiz...actually i am still feeling kinda blue. Can't get my mind off thinking about the future. About how things will change for you and me and the future is not as beautiful as you think. Its not as simple as saying things will still be the same. Because i will be missing a large part of you in my life.Circumstances are already changing....
~Jiang lai Ni wo jiu xiang bei shi jian ge jue~
One thing i thought i should bring up. We were discussing how people, in the face of love, tend to have the following kind of misunderstanding. Somehow, in the heat of untold love, people have this misconception that: the best thing i can do is to shorten your pain. I rather you suffer the misery of my houdini, then mislead you and hurt you even more in the future. I am considering from your perspective and this is the best for you. I am hurting right now too, feeling equally miserable but this is for your good. I rather DA all the pain today then let you suffer tomorrow.
Whats this? Heroism? Yes heroic indeed.
Consideration? yes. You rather bear the hurt alone.
There is no sarcasm in my agreement.
But crap. This is not the only situation out. For those of you out there who find this train of thought familiar, its time for you to wake up your idea. You aren't in a god forsaken movie in which such sacrifices are applauded or weeped for. Honourable yes. But brainless. The is one thing you missed out totally in your attempt to express your love through heroism. Don't you ever realism that this is STILL simply a way of escaping? Face the problem and go talk in out. What makes you think that this is a situation in which someone must GIVE it all and BEAR it all alone and someone must suffer. WAKE UP. COS THIS IS NOT TRUE AT ALL. Believe in the beauty of being open minded and talk. Spit the words out and make things clear. GIVE AND BE READY TO ACCEPT. Its all about give and take. Whack that heroic idea outta your head. No matter how messed up things seem to be, speaking the truth and being open will clear things up. And both can be happy. Don't you wish for it? A situation in which both can be happy and no one suffers. Come on, this is neither idealistic or peevish thinking. Its proven by many and many have seen it. Talking clears things up and helps.
Whats there to hide?
Reuben this is for you.The other one, you know who you are.
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